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• June 9, 2017

  When Can I Be Free?

  I’ll be blunt. I am struggling right now. I’ve been struggling with the same thing for almost eight years. it seems like it will never end. It seems like the moment I have some kind of hope of breaking free, I get distracted and I can no longer fight it. No… I no  longer feel…
• June 9, 2017

  Who am I?

  who am I? After all of my achievements, titles, family, and friends are stripped away what is left? Am I not just a empty husk? Is my identity really based in my family and friends, and achievements? After all is said and done what is left behind is loneliness, hope, kindness, raw emotion, and logic Loneliness…
• May 16, 2017

  Really? 

  I’m shocked. The moment I think I’m doing well, reality hits. I feel so alone without school. The minute I have some time to reflect on my self deeply, I realize how alone i feel. I know that there are people around me that love me, but if I’m being honest that does not make…
• May 11, 2017

  I am sorry for failing you

  

  I do not even know if you will see this, but none the less I need to say it. I am sorry. It is my fault. You trusted me and I abused it. What made it worse is I didn’t even realize it until now. I was paranoid about being a good friend to you,…
• May 11, 2017

  It has been a while

  I do not even remember the last time a wrote. I could look back, but I’ve been trying to stop doing that. I’m looking ahead now. I’ve been changing. I’ve grown up a bit… not a lot. but I feel as though I’m moving. I feel as though I’ve broke free from the people holding…
• April 22, 2017

  Free time

  I just got some free time. My school finally let up and I have the weekend to enjoy. I kinda miss school though. After a day and a half to my self, I felt alone.  I thought I had come to terms with my loneliness. I thought it had disappeared, but it seems I was…
• April 2, 2017

  I guess I’ve waited long enough

  I was waiting for a friend. I wanted to grow old with her. I wanted a life with her. My feeling were real. They still are. I’ve always take a long time to get over people I like. I don’t know when I’ll get over you, but hopefully I will.
• April 2, 2017

  Pity

  It hurts that I’m not enough. It hurts that you’re so far. It hurts that you don’t care. It hurts that I never said anything. It hurts that you’re gone. I’m hurting because of nothing. I pity myself.  I feel empty. I feel void. I never had anything there, but you made me forget. Now…
• February 15, 2017

  My loneliness now 

  My loneliness is nearly the same. I feel empty. I feel weary. I feel like I’m going to cry. I go to class I say hi. I try to be a light. I try to help my classmates. I try to be a good big brother. I try to grow up. I’ve spent my life…