The care you give is hidden. You say one thing, but do another. I think you are scared. You do not want to except the fact that you are good. You do not want to except the fact that you are loved, because of yourself. You love yourself, but cringe at others loving you. I think you crave this love. This friendship. This warm feeling, but you resist because friendship, and any relationship, that is true requires openness and vulnerability.
We have give that to each other, but I am not satisfied. I want to know more of you. I want to care for more of you. I want you to trust more of me, so I can get more of you. I want you to love me. I want you to want me like I want you.
But wants can only go so far. desire only holds up my end. I am floating in my feelings. I cannot go anywhere if I have no traction. You have give me a yes and a no. I will wait here; in the sky. Until you ground me with an answer that I can cling to.