The New year comes with new struggles. It seems like romantic loneliness is the winner. I don’t know how to talk about it and not feel like I’m whining, but if it’s haunting me, then I need to get it out.

I’m in pain and it’s getting hard to sleep. The feeling of not having someone to hold holds me by the throat. Ever threatening me to pull it as fast as I can. My family fills a part of me and my friends fill a part of me, but there is no one to fill the other pit inside.

It would be nice to find love this year, but it would be better to come to terms with being alone and then find love.