I could feel it when I woke up. It started out small, barely noticeable, but right now its taking up my whole field of vision. My distractions of school and work can no longer hold my attention. My loneliness has crept up again. I feel unloved. I feel empty.

When I got home from school, my first thought was texting someone. No one in particular, just someone to give me attention. I feel I need attention. I need affirmation to make myself feel loved. But relationships that are there for selfish reasons don’t last.

No none is waiting there for me, no one exists when I need them to. They are there if I think I need them, and they are there when I don’t need them. They are outside of me and yet feel reality as I do. They are them. I am me. but I am lonely.