I feel like I am changing. My loneliness and sadness are becoming disconnected from each other. They are parting ways. The aching is no longer effecting my emotions. I am processing it better. looking at my heart, my loneliness, does not send me into a spiral of bad emotions and self-destructive behavior. I am not who I used to be.
Although this is not a constant feeling, the fact that I don’t live in my head any more is something to rejoice about. I am happy, well… happier. Happier than I should be. I am better than I should be.
I do not feel sad all the time. I still feel lonely most of the time, but that’s ok.