I’m shocked. The moment I think I’m doing well, reality hits. I feel so alone without school. The minute I have some time to reflect on my self deeply, I realize how alone i feel. I know that there are people around me that love me, but if I’m being honest that does not make me feel much better the pit is still there and the pain only deepens.

 It feels like I can’t win. I try to change it but I never do. I don’t know how to. I am broken. Lord repair me.